…People just want the finished product without the work. 

I think they actually haven’t found the thing they like to be creative with. 

For instance I am actually a really good drawer/painter. I have pieces I’ve done that I’m surprised I was even capable of. 

But I just don’t really care about the process as much as I care about the YouTube process or the writing process….

I had a really good day today. I'm so excited about this potential blog, I can't even read in bed right now without thinking about it so I've decided to write here until I can read again. 

I did so much today, and I finished up my weekly vlog and decided to go ahead and record the voice over which was all about capacity and I noticed the bullet point I had for it was 

• How can I not chase a larger capacity but bring the capacity I want closer to me now?

Which sounds a lot like the seduction aspect for me and I wrote that bullet note weeks ago. My capacity tends to grow more not when I do all these things but when I…

Good morning, I am already feeling better from yesterday's spiral. As I knew I would, but I am glad I actually captured my feelings during it, so on this morning I can analyze a little bit. I read an article about seduction and money yesterday and a lot of things were clicking for me. Not in the sense that I'm suddenly a master at money seduction but I suddenly realized all the ways in which I'm low-key repelling money from a seduction standpoint…. 

I think I'm scared to build in public out loud. Some things just feel so intimate. Which is why I'm writing here now for you. I figured I'm on my phone a lot throughout the day anyway. Might as well use some of that time and funnel a way to feel creative and productive just sitting on the couch in a moment when I don't want to be on my big screen typing my book or editing my long form videos.

I have always wanted to jump straight to the finish line of a project, in fact not being able to teleport to it had stopped me from following a ton of different passions in the past. I'm a time bender and if I was failing to bend time well, I figured a specific venture wasn't for me…